The Silence of Doubt
by Ruansh Chowdhury, Good News Lutheran College
Finalist, Years 7 – 8, performance poetry
Two Parents, two unalike passions,
One child, formed from unalike missions,
Stuck between two zeals of pride
Fighting each other in grand chide.
Succeeding in both isn’t easy,
When being dragged into two worlds of misery
Beneath those trophies and triumph,
Lies a dark choice needing some “Humph!”
“How do I succeed?”
What is the voice inside of me?
This or that? That or this?
Is it right? Is it bliss?
This or that? That or this?
Is my life, worth the risk?
Succeeding father, fails mother,
Succeeding mother, fails father,
Succeeding both, fails me,
Succeeding none, needs plea!
Soon I am drowned in the demise of my own Mazarin tears,
What do I do in the loop of failure, heartbreak, conflict, fears?
Sit under the sunlight and pray,
That time and fate will come my way?
Or touch under the Godly embrace,
Of the hard shell wood granting me “grace?”
Cohesion sits tilted, in the cataclysm of all,
Earth rotates in fun and glee, despite traumatic befall.
Maybe there’s some strange solution,
To destroy fate’s old constitution.
Doing what I truly love…
Messes with the laws they wrote in blood.
And maybe… lets a little light into my lonely, dark heart.
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